Currently...



I'm writing this on July 3rd, and it's beyond hot. My brain is fuzzy with the heat and humidity, and so for this weeks blog posts I'm turning to a tried and true journal prompt...

Currently I'm...

Reading... Enough as She is, by Rachel Simmons (it's for a book club on raising girls, but let me tell you... I'm getting just as much out of this book for myself as I am for Paige), and Somewhere Beyond the Sea by Miranda Dickinson. 

Playing... endless games of Exploding Kittens with the kids.

Watching... Nailed It on Netflix (if you need a good laugh, be sure to start with Season One!), and Death in Paradise, also on Netflix ;)

Listening to... Frank Turner, non stop since Lucas and I saw him play in Boston on Sunday. His new album, Be More Kind, is brilliant, especially his song of the same title, "In a world that has decided it's going to lose it's mind, be more kind, my friends, try to be more kind..." and his song The Way I Tend To Be, from an older album, has these lines which I simply adore: "Love is about the changes you make and not just three small words." 

Working on... reminding myself that only I can find my own internal motivation, self confidence, and self belief, no one can do it for me.

Eating... all things grilled. We made these Hawaiian Chicken Kebabs over the weekend, and they were a huge hit! 

Wanting... a new tattoo... 

Needing... to speak kindly to my body, and to drink more water.

Loving... summer evenings on our porch. We've embraced eating alfresco, and have been lingering after dinner. I'm loving the connections and conversations this time affords for the four of us nightly. 

Thinking... about the second rejection I received for my manuscript, and how the first one gained high fives, but the second one I kept to myself for a few days. It stung. Not because I expected to hear anything positive at this point, but because the reality of the long road ahead sunk in on an already difficult day. I let self doubt creep in, and I talked myself out of how much I wanted to be on this journey very quickly. Luckily, after a few days I found myself again... thanks to a husband who listens until I answer my own questions, some inner searching, and loads of journaling... and I'm in this for the long haul. {Editing to add... the universe is definitely testing me, almost as soon as I typed the words "long haul" another rejection letter came in! I'm handling it much better this week... so that's something!}

Feeling... hot. 

Celebrating... the patriotic act of dissent. 

Grateful for... beach days, live music, iced tea, summer dresses, and hope.


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  1. That quote from Maya Angelou about creativity has me smiling. It truly gives me hope and inspiration, as does your post. Keeping the pain of the rejection inside can become like a thorn that digs in deeper, so I'm happy to know you pulled it out. I have a bunch of thorns that fester and get bumped from time to time, and they surprise me with the pain. I have been struggling to continue to adapt my play. At the current moment there is a new deadline. I feel continually strung along, as if no matter what I do to it, it's still somehow unsatisfactory. This is to be expected. Logically I know this. But it can become so defeating. In the midst of this revising, I met a teacher. A zen teacher, self taught visual artist, professional musician and composer by trade who teaches small children music in a Montessori school. She helped me to write around the blocks and get some peace. Her one big gift to me was to share that when she decided to make art, she firmly rejected formal training. She decided that art, for her, in this medium, was to be expressive only. I hope that idea can bring you to new possibilities. xo Oh! And we are enjoying Nailed It! too:)

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    1. But I don't mean to suggest that you are writing novels as expressive only, nor that you are not a pro! I am in awe of your craft and skill and I believe in your novel so much. I wish I was at the point where I was sending out things to publishers. Still grinding away at this initial stage. For every rejection, it's just one step closer to who you're meant to work with. Like finding your life partner. Think of those rejecting houses as a bad boyfriend you're better off never having to negotiate anything with.

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  2. don't lose heart - keep the faith and send your book to everyone you think might be interested. It's the only way! Sending you lots of luck and bravery!!

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  3. Sending you a big hug and buckets of encouragement, Corinne! I agree with Karen; don't lose heart and don't lose faith in your ability as a writer. Remember, J.K. Rowling received 12 rejection letters before finally finding a publisher...I bet every author has a similar story to share. xx

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  4. I followed a link from Alisha Sommer, here, and I'm so glad! What a gift! I just posted on FB that I'm looking for something to read, and now I have two more great recommendations. I just ordered Somewhere Beyond the Sea. I'm with you on this *Needing... to speak kindly to my body, and to drink more water.*

    I'm sorry about the rejection letter. This morning, I just got my first rejection in many moons for a job I applied to. It's not similar at all, but I bet the feelings are. When I read your words, I think writing a manuscript is such a big accomplishment and you did that!, and I'm glad you have a husband who listens and lets you work it out with yourself, and I hope you are gentle and kind with yourself as you process your feelings. I understand why self-doubt might creep in, and I'm loving the support in the comments above mine. I look forward to reading more when your summer break is over. I hope that summer presents you with lots of delight!

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