Monday, April 14, 2014

open hearts and big conversations

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{my girl, doing her thing, totally unprompted 
on the playground with children running all around her...}

We're talking about Easter and favorite parts of the holiday, and he tells us his least favorite part is church. And he asks to stay home. Across the table Lucas and I look at each other knowingly and tell him that we will go to church with his grandparents because it's important to them and it's important to us to be together. And we support those we love. We tell him he can bring a book. "Yeah, mom, but I better not bring the bird one that makes all the sounds. That wouldn't go over too well." We all laugh. 

We've had a lot of spiritual conversations recently. I find them difficult to navigate at times, as I'm on my own spiritual journey that isn't conventional and doesn't follow a path except the one that is perfect for me. It winds and is curvy and has hills and mountains and valleys, and I rest when necessary. But ultimately I walk it willingly. The kids see me meditating, and they are aware of many different beliefs, they read Buddha Bedtime stories and they look at their children's bible when they feel led. My girl, especially, wants to know about what people believe. What I believe. It's hard to say. 

We have conversations about how Grammy believes this, and Grampy believes that, and Grandma and Papa believe this, and their uncle believes in something called humanism... and we accept it all. Daddy might align most with Taoism. Mommy has a hard time with labels, but believes in love and the universe and that we are all connected. We are all one, and part of each other, and we all have this light in us that we each need to honor. To respect. To accept. Mommy calls that Spirit or God {depending on the day}, Daddy might call it something else. And that's okay. It's all okay as long as we love each other.

A modern spiritual family... that's what I feel we are. We have the big conversations and answer questions as best we can and sometimes saying I don't know is the perfect answer. We are all on this journey, separate but together with lines of communication and hearts way open. 

Namaste.

8 comments:

  1. She looks SO much like you in that picture! And so grown up...(sigh). I am with you, C, on this spiritual journey that defies labels and is hard to articulate and often doesn't make sense or fit neatly into any school of thought. But we keep coming back to love and grace and being at peace with not having the answers. xoxo

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  2. It's good to allow kids to be able to voice things they don't like or understand and that includes spiritual things. It shows they're thinking deeply about life and trying to process it. That's great you welcome your kids to do that. And yes, I agree with you, I think it's great for kids to know their parents don't have all the answers.

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  3. I have been trying to reconnect with myself and the universe and it has been a decision which I believe has brought me towards a rather meaningful journey. I am glad to have read this post. xo

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  4. beautiful. This world is complicated and one aspect that seems to be missing is the capability of understanding through the eyes of others and one way is not THE way there are many ways. Loved reading this and the journey-your children are spiritually rich :)

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  5. Corinne you must be able to read the words my soul is thinking so much about these days! We are catholic and I love the tradition of my faith. But I also realize that it isn't the only way. And there are people in the church I don't agree with. At times I feel like the church stifles the ways of the Spirit and makes people think that if they don't follow the "rules" completely then they are doomed. But I believe we all are part of a greater good, and we all have beautiful spirits. I am really getting in tune with the Spirit about me these days. It's so hard to put into words what I feel happening, but you have beautifully stated a lot that has been going through my mind. And it really does all boil down to respect, acceptance and love.

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  6. The freedom to believe the way you believe will empower your children for their life. That is a foundation I wish I had growing up. It doesn't make me insecure not knowing the answers.

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  7. I wonder, sometimes, if just having the conversation, itself, isn't the most important thing at these moments. Seeing you explore and live out your faith seems like a wonderful way to lead them to seek answers to their own belief questions. Loved this post:)

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  8. Seeing your beautiful face reminded me how much I miss your beautiful words. So I came by. And I'm so glad I did! We too struggle with faith, and making it a priority but letting them find their way. I just have to trust they will. xo

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